Tuesday, August 23, 2011

On being ill



And again.

So many bugs this year.

So much time given to sickness.

So much energy.

It feels doubly hard when your nights are broken. Your breastfeeding body is barely sustaining itself yet needs to sustain another too. When your children are ill and needing mama, but mama has nothing left to give. When all you need is rest to get better.

Illness is many things...

A pilgrimage to the dark silences of the soul
A teacher in our tolerance of pain and suffering
A reminder of our own biological nature and tender mortality
A much needed retreat in the world
And a pain in the ass!


  1. I so feel your point. I have a chronic disease that finally made me decide to give up breastfeeding a few weeks ago, only to be confronted with a baby not thriving on formula. It leaves me feeling frustrated, even more tired and guilty.
    How you always manage to write a post that so exactly reflects how I feel! I do try to see the positive side, the retreat, the teaching, but no, I can't. It really is just a pain in the ass.
    I hope you get well soon!

  2. Ditto Karien, my thoughts are with you. I am so sorry to hear about your baby and the feeding - what an added concern for you. I hope things resolve very soon and you are ALL thriving x

    Thanks MF!

  3. Ah I feel your pain... we keep having the same problem. I am such a wreck! I hope you and your body heal soon :) xxx

  4. Oh, goodness, that last bit made me laugh. I have a hard time seeing anything but the pain in the ass, myself. Perhaps I'll reach an end of the spectrum slightly nearer to enlightenment one day and learn to embrace some of the more positive aspects.

    I hope you feel better soon!

  5. thank you both- antibiotics seem to be kicking in (finally) - thank God for living in the modern world!



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